Let me start by saying, I love my family, my life, my child, and I know I am beyond blessed…

Now, that that’s out of the way…

BEING A MOM IS HARD AS SHIT SOMEDAYS! There are times when I feel like I’m winning! Like I am Tom Cruise standing on the couch declaring my love for motherhood and sharing a space with a man in the most cohesive way possible. Like those carrots I chopped and chicken I made the munchkin was a gourmet meal fit for royalty! Then there are days…

Days when I legit go in the bathroom sit on the toilet and cry. Days when I need a strong drink, when wine just won’t cut it! Days when I would give anything to be anywhere else but in my beautiful home with beautiful family.

Here’s why, for 40 weeks I was not myself! Yes, I said 40 weeks! My little love on top came on her due date so I was exactly 40 weeks when they rushed me into the surgical delivery room to go get her! I dealt with nausea, extreme fatigue, food aversions, THE SUMMER, and a never ending desire for water! Pregnancy was WHACK! As awesome as the pay off is, I will most definitely do it again but that does not change how awful the process was.

No one tells you that you won’t have your shit together everyday. As much as you plan to be the perfect mom, perfect spouse, shit happens and you get tired. The stress that comes from your paying job just my trickle over into the time you have with your baby and then….she hugs you. She hugs you sooo super tight that you feel her heart beat and her head that fits perfectly on your shoulder magically makes all the things that pissed you off fade. In that moment, you don’t care that although your spouse is an excellent provider, sometimes he misses the mark emotionally for you. The inhale and exhale of her little body on yours syncs and you know instantly that everything is worth it.

Its been 13 months since we’ve become parents. As much as she changes and grows every single day, it is our job to grow and change as well. So, no we might not get out to the movies and we may miss events with friends but we make sure we don’t miss any bedtime kisses and fingers up our noses. In the last year we got pregnant, got engaged, had a baby, and bought house! Can you say doing the most…

With today being the start of the new year, I challenge new moms to take a moment and let all the bullshit roll off of your back. Take those 5 minutes to cry in the bathroom then step back into your gansta. You made a tiny human! That’s the most badass super power there is! Pour a glass of wine or mix a cocktail and revel in the fact that being a mom isn’t always glamours but it is pretty freakin AWESOME!

 

-XOXO Brit